Blog 8 My Mother's Death & Putting her to Rest How do you grieve for a mother you never knew? Who didn't want to know you or love you? The one who rejected you? The one who lied to you and denied you so much? The one who's decisions throughout her life affected yours in so many ways? The one person who caused you the most amount of emotional pain over the years by simply denying you even existed? The one who was meant to love and protect you, but didn't? I have no easy answers to these questions. And trust me, as futile as they are, I have many more questions just like these. Even though I didn't know her, Sarah's passing affected me in many ways. There was no more hope that one day she might suddenly change her mind and want me in her life, to accept me and love me, to introduce me to my brothers who have been constant companions in my head all these years. I would never have the opportunity to speak with her and have my questions answered with honesty. ...
My ongoing search for truth